Who ever said rapping was easy!

On the way to the Common show, Melissa and I decided to make a video while stuck in traffic. &I attempted to rap.....FAIL.





Common delivered an awesome performance even though his set only included 5 songs, which two were "Go" and "The Light". I've never been a big fan of Common but now I love his music. I loved how he interacted with the audience and pumped us up. And in all honesty, I am a major fan of Kanye but he lacks communication with his fans when he performs! But he still manages to keep our full attention. I don't know how he does it but he's..Kanye. I love live music. I wish I was rich so I can attend all the concerts in the world. There's just such an unexplainable feeling when I hear music live.

On a another note, I wish that my parent's would actually BUY me a gift. Don't get me wrong, I really do appreciate the money they give me, but it just seems there's no sentimental value to it. All they do is sign the check and "Merry Christmas baba!". ALL I want is some fucking thought behind a gift. For goodness sake it can be a hand made card because at least they put some thought into it. I do get jealous when I hear my friend's stories of how their parents went OUT OF THEIR WAY to find their gift. When will my parent's go out of their way for me?

And this makes me miss my dad's ex-gf even more. Every Christmas she bought my sister and I something we really wanted. It wasn't even about the materialistic thing, it was the love behind it. I really miss Sunday brunches with her and the kids. Oh I really miss those kids. I "hate" how they got attatched to us though. They sometimes call me and ask me when I'm going to come over and play. And I have to pretend to be hopeful that one day I will come by 'cause I'm crying on the other end of the phone. I watched those kids grow up and I miss them so much. I miss my second mom. She really compensated for what I didn't receive in my childhood. I miss having someone concerned about my life..someone who actually took the time to sit down and talk about how I'm doing in life. I mean I'm old now and matured but shit...when will I actually get that parental guidance. I've never been grounded before and that's because I think my parent's don't care enough.

Anyway, I've been noticing that my lust for a relationship has died out. I think it's 'cause I've been hanging out a lot with just a bunch of dudes. Thank goodness. Who needs boys anyway? I'm Miss. Independent damnit.

I'm pretty sure I have A's in my Psy and English class. But for my business class, shoot, that's probably a solid C HA! =[. Next semester I'm taking 18 units. FML right? Whatever, gotta do what chu gotta do. I'm pretty excited though. I love learning...believe it or not.