New Years Resolutions

Smoke only the weekends (sadly, that's a challenge!)
Eat healthy (eliminate Hot Pockets out of my everyday diet ]=)
Limit my spending on snacking (that shit adds up!)
Find a hobby that I love and keep up with it
Learn that being single doesn't mean my skies are grey....................
Which also means LEARN HOW TO BE MISS FUCKING INDEPENDENT. I certainly don't need a man in my life.
Also, learn to take risks and let go of my guard just a little.

Winter break has been absolutely amazing besides the fact that my father never puts his children as #1 on his priority list. It's pretty sad how I've gotten use to his "I'm sorry Happy but maybe next week!" that it doesn't phase me. But once my sister got mad, it hit me hard how we're never fucking first in his life. Somehow some things are more important rather than his own children. Another reason of my why I consider my friends, my family 'cause they've shown more love and support. And I've given him chances for us to get closer but all he ever does reply with a "Oh I see" and continue with what was on his mind while I telling him how my life has been. For all fucking sake, I can tell him I'm pregnant and he wouldn't even notice what I said. It hurts even more to know that he's not supportive with my major in Business Entertainment, since it's not nursing. But when he sees that I'll be making that six figure salary he'll show me off like as if I'm his trophy child. It's not even just that though, I want him to be happy for me. I want his love and support. And most of all his dedication as a father.

But WHATEVER, fuck it. Since I lacked so much guidance as a child, I'm fucking independent now. I don't "need" them. And it's pathetic how my parents don't see WHY I'm like that too.