Prone to embarrassing moments!

So I walk to my car from class and set my books on top of it while I dig through my purse for my keys. Once I find them I start clicking the button to open it and it's just not working. For another good 10 seconds I'm standing there clicking the fucking button! While those 10 seconds are happening I notice something on my dashboard that wasn't there before but I just brush it off like nothing, then reality hit me and IT'S NOT MY CAR. It was EXACTLY like my car. It was the same color, same tint, for goodness sake it even had a Hello Kitty object in there too! IT WAS EVEN PARKED RIGHT NEXT TO MY CAR. Highlight of my day. I was laughing for a good 10 minutes...

Sometimes when I'm really bored I look through old journal entries that was exactly a year ago. And it got me really sad to see where I was this time last year. I was happily dating and planning my debut. I mean I pretty much am over everything but why! Why did it have to end ya know? I just don't get it sometimes. I do so much for that other one and I just don't understand why can't I just settle already with someone. I'm ready. I'm the most ready girl to fall in love. I don't care how old I am. I've had my fun already. I just want to be in love =[. I can be loyal, I can be fun, I can give the boy all the space and time he wants, I'm not jealous neither possessive. I'm sincere. I can take care. I can love like no other. I just don't think it's fair. I know I didn't deserve anything that happened to me in the past years. It's just last time I gave my everything and it ended. The only thing I'm having trouble with is when will I know it's right to do it all again. I'm selfish when it comes to taking risks though. No one wants to get hurt especially me because I have been through the worst with relationships. Now it has left me with high expectations and an unbreakable pride. I mean I've done all I can though. I dated a few people this past summer but really...no one can compare...............