Assholes, photoshoot, bday bash, Grandpa's homcoming, cancelled class, nightmares

So the weekend started off on Thursday even though I have class on Friday. My girls, Daniel and his homies, and I went to the Heist together. Of course, it's custom that we pregame and I had my usual Mickey's. I almost busted a Melissa (hahaaha =]) and got kicked out of line 'cause my faced was against the wall!! HAHA anywho, the club was it's usual good times but this time my ghetto side came out! I rarely use the word "asshole" and when used, I mean it to the bottom of my heart. I only know TWO people who are assholes. Usually, when I'm faced with someone I do not like, I just play it cool and don't pay attention to them. BUT Thursday night was comedy. I was buzzing it and I KNEW exactly what was I doing. I saw this asshole (I won't explain why he is but lets just say he did my best friend dirty) walk pass the door and into my direction. We were in the smoking patio and I straight up POINTED him out and said, "OH HEY LOOKS IT'S THAT DICKWAD!" (I swear I said dickhead but Melissa said dickwad) He looked at me with scared eyes and I raised my eyebrows. And he just turned around and walked away!! Melissa and I were cracking up! I never do immature shit like that! NEVER EVER. But I've always wanted to put that guy on blast for what he did and what I did that night was the least I could do for what he did. I just had to write this down 'cause that was so funny that night.

Then it was Friday, I had a photoshoot with Michelle!! What a sweetheart! And I was exhausted by the end of the shoot so I called it a day.

Then Saturday came!!!! I had another photoshoot on Saturday at Newport Beach. The pictures turned out WONDERFUL! But unfortunately, she can't find the memory stick so I have to reschedule another shoot. I'm not mad at all. Shit happens! Oh well! So later that night was Xtian's bday bash. It was one of the best nights of 08! No lie! Everyone was just so happy and..happy!!! I love meeting new people. I didn't get home till 5 AM.

Sunday was fam day and spent time with family. My grandpa finally came home and I haven't seen him in years! The VERY FIRST thing he tells me is "OH MY! DO YOU NOT GROW?!?!" Wow, thanks Grandpa, I missed you too???? It's really nice him being here but it's not the same because my Grandma isn't with him. He told me that she's really weak now and has alzheimers disease. I was trying so hard not to cry. I miss her and I really believe that if she comes back she'll get better. She doesn't get much support back at home because everyone is so busy. And I'm scared to say this but I know she's lonely. Her loves are here and she needs us. I miss her so much.

My class got cancelled and I was upset 'cause 1)I was in a learning mode and 2)what a waste of gas! And it's raining? How random.

Nothing too serious has happened so life is just simple right now....I like it.

Here are some pictures..

HAHHAAHAAHAHAHAHAA.

Before...


After.......we go together like peanuts in a shell! HAHAHAHHA. Anyway..

Tons of Sake that night. &I am the keg queen!

Erika!

This is was the random trip to Medieval Times. We were excited but unfortunately it wasn't as fun before! Well, I had a kick making fun of the choreographed fighting and the jousting was pretty tight. Other than that, I was unsatisfied. I WANTED KETCHUP WITH MY CHICKEN.


This was before summer. How how time flies!!! I can't believe we've known each other since kindergarten. We didn't like each other back then.

This is the picture I'm gonna blow up and hang in my room. I love my dogs.

This year was the start of nightmares for me. I experienced a few times where I had sleep paralysis and even hallucinated sometimes. And I had a lucid dream last night. I woke up in my dream at my house. Something was chasing me and I couldn't see anyone's faces. I tried to pinch myself to wake up and kept telling myself to wake up. I couldn't talk or even open my mouth. And something kept motivating me to grind my teeth. I finally woke up sweating. I hate nightmares. I have the worse nightmares!!

Prone to embarrassing moments!

So I walk to my car from class and set my books on top of it while I dig through my purse for my keys. Once I find them I start clicking the button to open it and it's just not working. For another good 10 seconds I'm standing there clicking the fucking button! While those 10 seconds are happening I notice something on my dashboard that wasn't there before but I just brush it off like nothing, then reality hit me and IT'S NOT MY CAR. It was EXACTLY like my car. It was the same color, same tint, for goodness sake it even had a Hello Kitty object in there too! IT WAS EVEN PARKED RIGHT NEXT TO MY CAR. Highlight of my day. I was laughing for a good 10 minutes...

Sometimes when I'm really bored I look through old journal entries that was exactly a year ago. And it got me really sad to see where I was this time last year. I was happily dating and planning my debut. I mean I pretty much am over everything but why! Why did it have to end ya know? I just don't get it sometimes. I do so much for that other one and I just don't understand why can't I just settle already with someone. I'm ready. I'm the most ready girl to fall in love. I don't care how old I am. I've had my fun already. I just want to be in love =[. I can be loyal, I can be fun, I can give the boy all the space and time he wants, I'm not jealous neither possessive. I'm sincere. I can take care. I can love like no other. I just don't think it's fair. I know I didn't deserve anything that happened to me in the past years. It's just last time I gave my everything and it ended. The only thing I'm having trouble with is when will I know it's right to do it all again. I'm selfish when it comes to taking risks though. No one wants to get hurt especially me because I have been through the worst with relationships. Now it has left me with high expectations and an unbreakable pride. I mean I've done all I can though. I dated a few people this past summer but really...no one can compare...............

Start of something new

Well, in the middle of my studying I remembered I haven't PUBLICLY blogged in a while. I do have a Livejournal but only close people or older stalkers know about it. And I just decided to make one here. A new start of happy (hopefully only happy) memories and what a great way to start it off as a first year college student, since that LJ was all about those stupid high school breakups. (The LJ account will still be constantly updated but it's more for personal thoughts. HA! You guys have no access.)

ENOUGH BABBLING AND TIME TO GET DOWN TO THE JUICY STUFF!

LOVE? What's love? I can't explain 'cause I'm dating no one right now. I like it. But sometimes I don't because loneliness gets the best of me. And if you bitches really know how I am..I just can't (or don't want to) live a happy life without having a boy by my side. I'm close to being over everything but my pride is high up in the sky now. So for now I'm practicing the single life..as happily as I can. BUT FOR THE MOST PART, FUCK GUYS..seriously...lets be friends first and then we can build something from that kay? Whatever, "I put the icky in picky!"

I moved to Orange back to where I grew up in. Not gonna lie, but I'm a little panzy because I'm scared of this house. I guess some paranormal activity took place when I was younger and I have to sleep with the TV on. But whatever homes. Anyway, I got EXTREMELY bored and impatient so I painted my room all my by myself. I think painters deserve a good pay because that's some hard work. Maybe hard work for me 'cause I was TIP TOEING the whole fucking time!

A month into college, my hard studying has paid off and I'm getting exceptional grades. I deserve it damnit for being MIA. Whatever work hard, party hard. Story of my life. It's really funny how people think I'm SO MS. PARTY GIRL over here but really much time is spent in my room sleeping and eating. FOR REAL. I've become really picky (or lazy) with who I chill with. I feel really bad because people always hit me up to chill and I just say no. And what's even more pathetic is I end up just chilling at home. I don't know. Two years ago is when all hell broke lose in my life and I lived that party life and now I'm (pretty much just ) over it. All I wanna do is kick it with my close friends. Party when I'm done studying. But IDK but I just want to kick it at home? I value my alone time.

Since college does offer a lot of free time, I decided to get into modeling. My best friends are into and why not? It's only a hobby. It's fun! I mean what kind of girl doesn't want to get dressed up and take pictures!!!!

The down side of this past week is I've been fucking flaked out on SO many times! I mean I would get ready and I'm about to hop in my car and then BAM! "I'm sorry but it's not happening anymore!" I know it's out of their control but that shit SUCKS. And I haven't gotten mad for that long in a LONG time. Hmph...

PICTURES!


My room! My palace of looooooooooooove.


Here are some of my favorites shots from the past shoots. I have a bikini shoot. I'm not that excited for obvious reasons.











MY DOGGIE, TOBY!!!!!!!!!!


My other dog, LOUIE!!

Pictures from Rock the Bells. I MISS SUMMER =[. Kawawawawa...






I'm not embarrassed to say this BUT THERE WERE SO MANY "FINE FELLAS" THERE. &I NEVER say that.


&a video of my best friend and me. I think it was CRAZY how a guy from Myspace asked me if I was that asian girl in those Youtube videos. I was freaked out and I asked how do you know..and he said he recognized my laugh!!! WHOAAAAA, right?


I miss my dad. I'm kindda sad I missed the Bikol Festival (he invited me to go with him). I'm really interested about different cultures especially my own. Whatever always next year! Anywho, LA Fair. I wanna go, I wanna go ogogogogogo.

I kind of miss high school. I just miss being stupid at school and NO ONE can ever understand that unless they graduated from Rosary. Nikki just texted me about how Kairos is going on THIS SECOND. And I'm really considering of sending in my letter about being a leader. I can't say anymore because I don't want to ruin anything for anyone going on later Kairos trips. I MISS KAIROS. I miss my friends..especially the ones who left for SD =[.