Hip hop at its finest.

While drinking with the homies, Vistro and I were flipping through the iPod and came upon some old hits. I don't know any other friend who knows the same old school music taste as me! We started blasting some Naughty by Nature, Public Enemy, and Blackstreet! Then, we went on Youtube and started searching for 80's and 90's hip hop hits so we can make our SICK ASS mix cd. Gosh, it was bringing me back to when I was 5. Despite at how young I was, good music was no stranger to my ears. I always wished I was older like my cousins who rocked the overalls with one side unhooked. They were always bumping their TLC and Boyz II Men as if they owned the neighborhood. I was just so influenced to such (what I think is) good music. A little over 10 years later "hip hop hoorrrayy" never seems to get old. Even though at the time and even still now, I may not know all the titles of the songs or even know the artist, know what hood they grew up in, all that stuff..but I do know what good music sounds like. I just think its unfortunate that today hip hop music has evolved into something I don't love as much as I do with earlier music. Maybe that makes that music so good is its history. But still...music today just isn't the same.

So speaking of old school, I was VERY VERY fortunate to see Boyz II Men in concert this last Tuesday. The following words doesn't justify how I really felt. No exact words can really explain their performance. It was to say the FUCKING least......amazing. They played their old hits like, "On Bended Knee", "End of the Road", "Water Runs Dry", and of course "I'll Make Love to You". A year or two ago they released a CD containing of Motown classics like "All This Love" and "Just My Imagination", which they performed along with the smooth choreography artists of the 50s did. 18 years (I can't believe they are as old as me) later they still have that energy to entertain their fans. Not only are they astounding singers, but they are passionate about their talent. Passionate yet humble. Their "thanks yous" to the crowd is so modest, not like the artists today. They bowed after every song and when they shook any fans hands, it was with a firm grip. I just don't see that gentleman-like attitude today in entertainment. Times have really changed.

A night I will never ever forget!!

Here's one of the videos from the concert..(I can't upload the other ones =[)

Just want to jot down some plans for my life.......

-Get the fuck out of FJC when I'm 21.
-Be an intern at a radio station this upcoming summer.
-Take summer classes to lessen my stay at FJC.
-Pretty have NO social life. That's going to be so hard with me.
-Graduate by 24 with a bachelors in Business Entertainment.
-Be really happy with my career choice while making $$$ so I can live comfortably for myself and my family.

I don't believe

in love anymore. I see it but don't feel it.

It's all stupid shit to me now.

"I remember mama said:

You cant hurry love
No, you just have to wait
She said love dont come easy
Its a game of give and take"

I heard this song in the car and it completely took my full attention. It's pathetic that I relate it to my life but it certainly does it explain it well! I think I will make a Motown CD for those "I feel so good right now" drives.

Tonight, I was with Brian, Caresse, Vistro, and Jordan. We ate at Lucille's but were only limited to appetizers because my gift card was only worth $12.54. After, we didn't know what to do but since "it was Wednesday" we decided to drink and go to Downtown Disney. Majority chose Crown Royal while I desired some other alcoholic beverage since every time I drank that shit, I threw up =[. But this time I was a champ! It was just fun times again. Just laughing at stupid stuff. I'm really taking advantage of all this free time I have, since next week I start school. 17 units will be the death of me. And I really plan to get A's and only A's.

This week has been quiet eventful already. I went to a karaoke bar for the first time for Jordan's birthday! The video below will explain all the fun that happened that night. Soju is my new love. The next day my high school friends and I took a trip to LA for Michelle's bday. Our first stop was Santa Monica Pier where we took those classic photobooth pictures and we ate at Bubba Gumps. Second stop was Chinese Theatre where Judith got attacked by Spongebob. Third stop, Pink's! I was a first timer there and honestly, it wasn't as great as everyone hypes it up to be. It was a good hot dog to me, nothing more, nothing less. Forth stop, was Sprinkles! Then I went home and did some scrapbooking. I just got back into it. (I used to scrapbook A LOT in grade school.) I was looking through my mom's albums and how exciting it was to look back on her days and it inspired me to start making albums beginning with my college years! Not gonna lie, but this album looks pretty dope so far! =] alot of hard work goes into it HA!



My birthday is approaching and I can't believe it's almost a year since my debut! Boy, has life changed A LOT! For the better though =].

So of course I had to think of what I want for my birthday! Well, here's the list:

-YOU AT MY PARTY
-Well, I don't know if I'm having one but if I do..all I want is you and all your friends there! I want to have "one of those parties" where everywhere I turn, I don't know the person. It's just one of those choatic yet fun party!
-If I were to have a party I want a keg so everyone will have fun!
-A Jager bottle.
-Tarino Tarantino jewelry.
-MY OLD JEWELRY BOX. If someone finds, I will burst out into tears. It would mean the world if someone found it.
-Car seat covers.
-Little Big Planet.
-Another remote of for my PS3.
-Scrapbook stuff (paper, scissors with designed edges, pictures to add to it, stickers, etc.)
-POLAROID FILM, POLAROID FILM, POLAROID FILM, POLAROID FILM, POLAROID FILM, POLAROID FILM.
- a snowboarding trip.
-My Girl 1 & 2 on Blue Ray
-Back to the Future Trilogy***************

Drunk bowling

Every time I go out I'm always the only girl. And I completely love it. I don't mind being surrounded with a bunch of dudes. In fact, I would rather be with just guys. Less drama. I mean, I have a select few girl friends but other than I can barely tolerate girls! I just think they're so.......girly. No offense or anything! It's because guys just DON'T GIVE A FUCK. And that's how it should be. I should be able to burp, drop "f bombs", fart, have fun!!!! I sound hypocritical since I like fashion but if you really do know me...I act like a guy!

Well, I spent Friday night with my old high school friends. We ended up playing beer pong and just having fun!! I really do miss high school..the people in it. It's just weird 'cause at school people don't get my jokes like how they do. It's just that whole transition phase sucks. But college is no social grounds for me, so it doesn't phase me that much. It was just fun hanging out with them and sharing that same humor that only our group understands!!! Good fucking times.

Yesterday, I finally got to see my dad's ex-gf and her family! It was really sweet walking into the house and having the little kids surround me with tight hugs and "Happy, play with me please!". I felt like I was home again walking around her house doing the usual ritual of kissing the titas and then taking a seat at the table and eating. We caught up with how we're doing and it seems as if nothing had happened between her and my dad. Unfortunately, I flel asleep when her and my sister conversed about the break up. Long story short my dad has not yet learned to overcome his stubbornness and sad to say it, but selfishness also. I mean, 13 years after a divorce you would think he would learn but I guess not. I guess they were close to getting married but he told her he was scared which is understandable, but I don't see why he can't just let loose. I'm just more proud of her of standing up for herself with my dad because as being his daughter that is something very difficult to do. It was just good seeing her and her family again!

I went drunk bowling last night. I bet you can imagine how fun that was!

Started the New Year with a bang!!

Well lets just recap how wonderful my night last night was!!

-started off at Vistro's house. Right when I stepped on his door way, he passed his room and he was shirtless." Vistro, you're naked!"
-picked up Jordan at a friend's house and went to his house to watch Street Kings. Two thumbs up btw.
-went to a Yorba Linda kickback where I counted down.
-lost in a beer pong game.
-looking around the house for food and I found "pandesal".
-since I had no one special to kiss on New Years, I made Mr. Miller Light my man for the night.
-had a bomb head change in the car ride to Dave's house.
-at Mobil I told some dude he can cut in front of me and was telling him he should feel honored that he was the first guy I let cut in the 2009 while poking him.
-calling these filipino peanuts "palabok" because I didn't know what the real name for it and from then on palabok was everything to me.
-drunk dialing Nikki and telling her that I took my Lactaid when I ate palabok 'cause that shit has CHEESE =/. I don't remember what else I was rambling about. Nikki might has to refresh me on that.
-I drunk texted a lot of people which I rarely ever do. I was probably bored drunk in the car and wanted to pesterize my people.
-Arrived at Dave's pad and popped my first squat "of '09" 'cause I HAD to OK!
-Took a couple more shots and stuffed my face with my first banana "of '09" and water.
-Played Guitar Hero and finally killed it on the drums with "Damnit". I play better when I'm buzzing it.
-The car ride home was the best!
-"Oh, is that Lambert I see? Time to whoop out my stog!"
-"You guys...have you been on a carabow...'cause I want to ride one".."WTF STEPH?!!!!!!!"
-"Are you from....'duh states'?"
-"PALABOK PALABOK PALBABOK!....palabok for life."
-"Love season is in progress...don't stress! Love is like a fire on furnace!"
-"Shut up, you're gonna make me choke on my pancit."
-"Is there carabow in this!?"
-*sees a car with the hazard lights on* "DAMN, stay away from that car..it's hazardous!"

And then I drove home and knocked the heck out!!

Here are some of pics!

These are the peanuts that I named "palabok".

And this was the drunk text to Justin.
Hey, gotta let him know who's boss with my girls! HA jk.

New Years Resolutions

Smoke only the weekends (sadly, that's a challenge!)
Eat healthy (eliminate Hot Pockets out of my everyday diet ]=)
Limit my spending on snacking (that shit adds up!)
Find a hobby that I love and keep up with it
Learn that being single doesn't mean my skies are grey....................
Which also means LEARN HOW TO BE MISS FUCKING INDEPENDENT. I certainly don't need a man in my life.
Also, learn to take risks and let go of my guard just a little.

Winter break has been absolutely amazing besides the fact that my father never puts his children as #1 on his priority list. It's pretty sad how I've gotten use to his "I'm sorry Happy but maybe next week!" that it doesn't phase me. But once my sister got mad, it hit me hard how we're never fucking first in his life. Somehow some things are more important rather than his own children. Another reason of my why I consider my friends, my family 'cause they've shown more love and support. And I've given him chances for us to get closer but all he ever does reply with a "Oh I see" and continue with what was on his mind while I telling him how my life has been. For all fucking sake, I can tell him I'm pregnant and he wouldn't even notice what I said. It hurts even more to know that he's not supportive with my major in Business Entertainment, since it's not nursing. But when he sees that I'll be making that six figure salary he'll show me off like as if I'm his trophy child. It's not even just that though, I want him to be happy for me. I want his love and support. And most of all his dedication as a father.

But WHATEVER, fuck it. Since I lacked so much guidance as a child, I'm fucking independent now. I don't "need" them. And it's pathetic how my parents don't see WHY I'm like that too.