"When in doubt, bar it out!"

So today I basically just hungout with Brian. There was completely nothing to do. Every person we called was at home. So what was there to do? Go to the bar of course. They don't card so it was no hassle to get alcohol. We were just chilling with our beers and talking. I might move in with him and Giann this summer. Honestly, I wouldn't room with anyone else but them. It's really better than rooming with a bunch girls.....seriously. But the only things holding me back are 1) My parents don't have money to spend on rooming just like that. Therefore, I might have to pull out on some loans. And I've given this a lot of thought. I don't want to have to deal with paying loans when I get married and start my life. I don't want the start of my life with stress with debts. I'm only thinking about this so my future later on can be a breeze. Economy is bad as it is and it might get worse through the years.BUT possibly moving out would be the wise choice. Moving out would mean less stress to handle therefore succeeding more with my schooling. It goes both ways. Deal with debts while suceeding more in school or graduating with average grades without no debts. I DON'T KNOW. 2) I don't want to leave my mom alone. I don't want to get into too much detail about it, but I'm just so worried who is going to take care of her when I'm gone. I know that MYSELF is priority but family comes first and foremost, even before me.

Lately, when I'm at home I think a lot about where I am in life. I'm sure most of you do too since there's really nothing to better to think about than yourself, right? But anyway, I was thinking about how I've never been happier in life. I finally found my group of friends who I don't have to worry about impressing or having non-sense drama with. Like what Brian said, "When you're with us, there's nothing to worry about." I finally feel comfortable and happy with a group of best friends. I've gone through so much with friends and it's come to this. Sure, I had to deal with a lot of emotional stress but it was all worth it. Cheesey as it sounds but it's really the plain truth. And I'm also proud to say that I'm happy..without a man. Life is good. Life is at it's best. I thank God for blessing me with such wonderful friends and a loving family.